I just want to disappear.
To be non-existent.
Or at least, to be really invisible.
To not be seen by others.
I am tired of living in a world where I am constantly being judged
for all of the mistakes I do.
As if I have never done any good in my existence.
As if I am the only imperfect being on Earth.
As if I am really a living android.
Maybe I will disappear.
Maybe one day you will never see me anymore.
Maybe one day I will be invisible.
Will I be missed?
Will I be remembered?
Will anybody notice that I am already gone?
Will anybody notice I was hurt and alone?
"Free yourself", they said.
I tried and I failed.
Still finding the right words to say.
Still waiting if I am allowed to stay.
I am tired.
If this is giving up, then it is what it shall be.